Frustrated: 26 weeks, 4 days

I know that not everything is perfect, but sometimes I wish my boyfriend could be more understanding. Sure, he's great and wonderful. Actually the other day he said the nicest thing - "This is not your pain, it's our pain." He was referring to when I was depressed because I told him to not worry about it and just go have fun with his friends who were over. But he said that he wouldn't have been able to enjoy it knowing that I was feeling so down.

But lately he can be so abrupt from time to time that he makes me feel bad and regretful for coming to him. I know that he is extremely short-tempered, but I am also very sensitive to begin with and on top of that I am pregnant and hormonal and on top of that I am struggling with my bipolar so much that this depression likes to kick my ass.

With all of those factors in my life I am still trying my best to smile behind my tears and am doing a pretty good job of it as well.

Today is a big day. My sister has a biopsy she's going through and my friend, Jimmy's bipolar is overtaking him. His medication just got changes once again. I don't even know if he got his blood tests done! Oh well. Who knows what's going on. I woke up two hours late today. Thanks to my boyfriend who called me, if not, I would've never woken up.

I am so not in a good mood today. I wish I could just snap out of it, but I can't. Maybe lunch will help. Food's always good for me.