Monday, August 17, 2009
I turned 24 weeks yesterday and I'm lonelier and depressed more than I've ever been. Self-mutilation is not an option and it's hard on me because my boyfriend works opposite hours of me and is asleep when I need him most.
I'm finding pregnancy more and more difficult as time goes on and I really am not going on medications. What the hell do I do in this matter? Not to sound like I'm going off the deep end, but that's exactly what it feels like. It's almost as if I need to pinch or slap myself every hour just to make sure that this is really what my life has turned into. I keep seeing happy pregnant women everywhere and families that are together. And I just don't have that. I'm so sad and I go home to myself. I'm starting to go on and on, but I don't know who to turn to or who to really talk to.
Someone help.
Trinity
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