July 28-31 – Week 21
Hello my beauties! Tara and J*, I have been meaning to put you in
touch with one another for quite some time now!
Tara, Amy just told me you're having a boy! Congrats!!! That's
amazing. J has a baby boy named ****. The CUTEST baby!!
Love you both!
-Sarah
Hi J*,
This is Tara AKA Trinity. I'm 5 1/2 months expecting a little baby boy. I'm very excited because all I need in life is less drama! And boys seem to do that for me. Well, I was speaking to Sarah a few months back and she was telling me that she had a friend who was also single while she was pregnant--you. I guess I don't know many single women who are pregnant and it's just very hard for me living by myself and doing much of this by myself. I JUST got back with my boyfriend about a month and a half ago - but he's still in NJ and I still don't trust him 100% yet because I guess I'm just lonely all of the time. I don't know what your situation really was. But I know in mine it was hard at the time because for the first trimester while I was painstakingly sick and going through a lot he was seeing another girl. He found out I was pregnant and continued to see her more. The perfect wonderful man I knew all of these years completely turned on me when I needed him most. After he heard the baby's heartbeat for the first time (14 weeks pregnant) he pretty much stopped seeing the girl. But indeed, she's been a nightmare! She found out my number and has texted me numerous times. She got one of her male friends to actually call Danny up and harass him one night with many lies about me and she has passed around a lot of rumors about me. All the while, I'm in DC and she's in NJ - the same town as him. Yours was probably not filled with this much drama, but I'm telling you it's just really hard being by myself. Even though I know he's there for me, he's still not physically here and my support system down in DC isn't the strongest. I guess I'm just blabbering now, but I'm wondering (baby just kicked) what you did to get through pregnancy sane! It's already crazy to begin with, plus added loneliness isn't always good.
I also didn't really tell Post all of this, so I don't know - wow, I just spilled out a lot to a perfectly good stranger. I AM hormonal! Hahaha. Hope all's well with you and congratulations on Wade. How old is he now? Aren't you married now as well?
Hope to hear from you in the near future.
Trinity
Helllooo sorry I have't written back in a while, I kept checking my other email- well, I can understand doing that whole spilling the beans thing- you need to talk and get all of it out of your system! I'm sure you felt slightly better after you got it off of your chest even if it was just an email. I'll tall you alot of things got me though my pregnancy and even though my boyfriend was in town he wasn't to keen on the idea of being a dad until almost up until the fact. Shoot- he was cought smoking pot after the fact- so even after Wade was born it took him a looong time to grow up. I don't know if Sarah told you, I had drama somewhat like you did, but uhh, every situation is different. I've had a tough life, mostly of my own doing, so what I got I desreved because I didn't listen to my better judgement, or my christian upbringing to stop the madness-to say...My husband now, yes we just got married June 27th, is write younger than me, and we had to go through alot of judgement in the beginning just because of that- uhh and then Wade came wow,,not an easy road for us, and we had split up for a while as well, he cheated but we had been on the rocks then too... we had only been back together for like 2 months when I found out I was pregnant. I knew immediatly that I was, but i didn' t tell anyone for almost a month. Byt then I had made up my mind and that was only because I felt the Lord leading me to do so, and I wanted to trust in Him and it was the best thing that ever happened to me, with or without my now husband, Hunter. But this is only the tip of the iceberg with my story. I think I'm going to write a book about it, becaus Lord I have had enough drama in my life for them to make a soap opera ;-) well, I think you should call me, that way if the loneliness ever gets after you, you know you have some one you can call who has been though it, maybe not wuite the same but closer than anyone else. Plus, we won't have to sit in front of the screen going crosseyed and spending extra money on eye drops to keep our eyes from going dry. i'm a dork- You'll have to excuse my humor.- Hope all is well at the present, EAT and APPLE A DAY!!!! it is true what they say-- and eat one meal of fish a week, it DOES help them to be disciplined easier and I believe it definetly helps their brain to develop better...probably why they follow directions better and learn easier. My son is almost 2, his birth day is Sept 1st--I know, labor day weekend...funny, funny. Well, call me anytime, my cell is ********** if I don't pick up the 1st time its cuz I don't recognize the number and I think its some spanish dude calling me again...another story for a later date—j
You are too freakin' hilarious! I'm like laughing and crying all at the same time because it's like God put me in touch with you. I did feel GREAT after i wrote those words to you, even if you never wrote back just because I really did need to get it out. And no one understands. Even though I don't know your whole story yet, I am feeling the exact same way you probably did. I feel like I deserve all of these things because I wasn't the best girlfriend to Danny in the past. But at the same time, things are getting better, but the bitch (excuse my french) is getting worse in my life. She had the nerve to actually contact me and put me down last week. The girl he used to talk to while he found out I was pregnant. I don't know how to deal with her. And trust is an issue. Oh God, I just want to scream and cry. People who don't know what it's like to go through hell and pain (emotional) on top of the already physical drama really just don't understand what I'm going through and dealing with.
Thank God Danny is becoming a better partner, friend, parent, the whole bit, because if it kept going and getting worse I don't know what I would have done.
I will give you a call, because I need to. I'll punch in your number after I get done this email. I'll see if I can't call you tomorrow, I will next week. Next week I'm alone in DC for the week, no family around or friends. Everyone's pretty much gone on vacation. So I'm alone with my thoughts - the Devil's playground.
Also, one more thing. June 27th is Dan's (the father) birthday. And August 31st (day before your son's) is my birthday. I was laughing when I read your email and saw those dates!
Have a great weekend and congratulations to you and how you got through everything. I'll tell you one thing - everything happens for a reason and I think I'm going to have future struggles or something in my life because God is definitely preparing me to be a strong woman.
Love,
Trin
oh my jeez- I am horrible at checking this email account- I have 1033 unread messages- save this email account - I check that one almost everyday. I feel terrible! I didn't see if you called that week, I am so sorry if you called and I didn't pick up- but I didn't hear a message, so hopefully I am not too bad a person. We're closing on the house next week so I can FINALLY be with my husband for real now. Lord- we get married in june and we still don't get to be with each other for 2 months- well i hope everything is going well with you and the crazy loon girl isn't making things any harder than it has to be. She'll be a mom someday and regret what she's done, and if she doesn't become a mom than it was best that she didn't. Either way it will come back to her. I started working again- I'm a special education teacher- i can't remember if i told you that or not... but the kids came back this week and I think i might have a better year than last year's bunch. Here's to hoping! TTYL-j
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